For the last year I have been lost, my brain has been scattered and my attention has been elsewhere. Where exactly I don't know. I have used this blog for my writing and thoughts for a very long time, with the exception of the last year of course. It started to become a little more public especially with friends and family, and I started to withhold my normal writing and soon it became a "look what we did over her weekend" blog. Which is never what I wanted. I obviously wanted to showcase my family and promote motherhood, however my goal was to write. From my heart, the highs and lows of motherhood and crazy kid antics. Not post a 100 photos of our weekend.
Somewhere in the last couple months I searched my soul and figured out what was wrong with me. My blog, or lack there of. I missed writing and wanted it back. Being ten feet deep in motherhood I need something of my own again. I realized I was not myself and I needed to change that. I have felt scattered A lot stemmed into my break, first our computer broke, then our basement flooded (where our computer was), the duties of motherhood, and later on moving. We have been very busy, and also learned we are expecting our fourth Carlin baby. I miss writing, I miss connecting, and I miss the opportunities that have came from this amazing community.
I'm happy and content in our new home and look forward to creating my online space again.