The Night I Lost My Freaking Mind

In spite of this damn appendicitis I have decided to talk about so much, I stayed with my mama for a couple days because my Mr. had a trip that he was obligated to in Northern California.

 

The plan was my sweet parents..and the best grandparents in the entire world were going to take the girls Thursday and we would meet them up in the mountains on Friday.

Well, plans changed and the Mr. didn't get home till Friday instead of Thursday. Do you know what that means!!!
I had an entire night to myself. MYSELF.

I mear thought of that set my into mama heaven. I honestly can say that I have not had a night completely alone in over 3 years. If my parents had the girls, I had the Mr. If the Mr. was out of town, I had the girls.
I definitely took advantage of that...at first.

I went to Target alone, got a manicure and pedicure, ordered me some Thia food because the Mr. despises it. Came home to a spotless completely organized house, because being on those pills was comparable to Speedy Gonzales. Yes I was a cleaning fool.

Then ya know what happened. I lost my shit.
GUYS!!! I completely lost it! I had a minor anxiety attack and started texting the Mr. and my mama. I didn't know what the hell to do, and I have no idea how to be alone anymore. Especially when its dark outside and you have no idea what to watch on TV because you never get to watch it anymore.

The Mr. replied and always knows how to make me laugh.
MR: Will you please calm down and stop scaring our dog! Enjoy yourself.
Well of course that made me laugh because he already knew I was freaking our dog out.

Next thing I did was text my Bestie and she scooped me up for some ice cream as she was driving her little monster to sleep. It was perfect timing!
Thank goodness for her because I was hysterical.
I feel silly now but I missed them, all of them. I don't know how to be alone these days, and frankly I don't like it.
Sometimes I may complain of mama duties or the fact that I just want "10 freaking minutes to myself!!" but the truth is I love my busy chaotic life and I'll probably always reflect on that night alone next time I'm complaining.
Because I really lost it!

And here they are right before they leave to go camping with Nana and papa. Yes they both picked out their outfits and their boots.
Mini Fashionistas.
Oh and I also asked Raygan if she was blowing a kiss to daddy, and she said "no I'm giving attitude!!"
Can ya see why I missed these boogers?

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